Writer's Block: Don't fear the reaper

Have you ever had a near-death experience? How close have you come to dying?

No, I've never had a NDE, but I do often find myself thinking about death and what it's like... Sometimes I even wish I had a NDE, just to check if the stories about the tunnel etc are true... :D But I'm not a freak, or suicidal... I like living, I would never kill myself, not on purpose anyway..., and if I'm destined to die, than it's destiny I guess... we'll all die eventually anyway.

Up until now, I've had lots of family members die, all four of my grandparents, and my dad...

My dad dying was the first real shaking moment of my life. He was such a great person, and he was sort of my favorite family member, we always got along great, I was 16 back then, my brother 17, and my sister only 4.

A few years ago my sister almost drowned in our pool, that was the scarriest day of my life. It was especially a shock to me, because I was actually in the pool with her and it's not a big pool ar anything either... I only lost sight of her for about one minute, I was talking to the neighbor who just came. That is one experience I would never wish on anyone. I don't think I would ever be able to forgive myself, and I can only thank God that nothing happened... just remebering it gives me creeps.

The other experience of death that I had was my grandmother dying a year ago. At her funeral I just couldn't get myself to cry... Not that I wasn't sad, I was... but in a way, I was also glad for her... does that sound too weird? I felt relieved for her, because she was really hurting last four-five years... She was always working so hard, her entire life, and then, practically overnight, she couldn't do anything, she couldn't walk, or even sit straight, or eat by herself. She couldn't even talk normally... she started losing memory, and gradually went back to her childhood, talking about her parents who died 20+ years ago, like they were in the same room... until she completely forgot about us at all... last year she was unable to recognize any of us... It was hell for her, and wherever she is now, I hope it's better, I believe that.

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About american election

Well, it's been some time.  I just had this huge writer's block, I don't know.

Since everyone's talking about american election these days, I guess I could share my thoughts too, although I won't vote, obviously, since I'm not American.

I really hope Barrack Obama wins, I really do. Although... I know his slogan is "change", but I'm not sure how  much he'll really be able to change... I hope it won't end up all talk and no walk... I just think Bush's actions got to deep, and to just leave and pack out of Iraq now, would be very irresponsible I think. No matter how wrong his actions were in his foreign politics, the biggest mistake being the war in Iraq (that's why I put emphasis on it the most)  it's impossible to just turn completely the other way all of the sudden, it would be too dangerous. And no matter how much Americans dislike his actions now, they did elect him twice in a row, therefore, they hold the responsibility for his actions too. That's why I think leaving Iraq now would be very disrespectful to Iraqi people, who are in a mess they are in now, because Americans elected Bush (twice). America messed up, America should fix it too, not just leave things in dissaray, I think it very irresponsible of Obama to say things like "we're leaving Iraq in 18 months" etc.

I don't like McCain, and Sarah Palin is just laughable imo. Don't know what people see in her really, but it's not my  concern. I like Obama and his philosophy, I like it that he's such an idealist, but I also think he should be a bit more realistic. Change can't come overnight, it has to be a long term decision. If he wins, he gets mandate for 4 years and that's not enoug time, and he should say so openly.  But America does need change, and the world needs it too. Americans should keep in mind, that when they vote, it's not the same as when Croats vote, or Italians, or Australians, or whoever... America is the most powerful country in the world, and when they vote, their decision affects everyone, not just America. If McCain wins, I'll be really dissapointed.

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I have new posts in croatia_photos and euro_photos. They're the same, I put some pictures of autumn Zagreb, go check them out, they're really nice.


Stealing my bike

What a night I had yesterday.

Actually, it all started on friday. I was meeting my friend Martina in the city. My brother is getting married this saturday, so we went shopping for my dress. And, since I came a little earlier home from work on friday, I took my bike, instead of my car.

So, I parked the bike about 100-200 m from where we were about to meet, and then we started the usual shopping route, all shops in Ilica street and around, and I tried on so many dresses I can't even count. So... hours after our of maniacal walking (running) we decided we got hungry, so we went to a pizzeria. And about an hour later, it was already too late to really find anything, and most shops were already closed anyway, so we decided to end the day and go home.

We partly go in te same direction, so we went together. Martina was about to take the tram, and I my bike.

But. I got to my bike, and everything was fine, it was where I left it, and in the condition I left it in, but... I couldn't find the key for the locket! I searched the entire bag at least 7 times, took out everything that was in it, and checked again, and it wasn't there! I had two keys, of course, but the "smart" me never bothered to separate them and put one somewhere safe in case the other gets lost. So I lost both keys LOL. I'm SURE I had them when I left the apartment, because I specifically checked that I had them.

So... I couldn't open the locket. So I had no choice but to take the tram too. I hoped that I dropped them somewhere in the apartment before I left, but... no. They weren't there either.

On saturday I decided that I won't let it bother me, so that I can finally find the dress in peace. I found it after about 8 hours searching, when it was already 6 in the evening. I did check if the bike was still in it's place, and it was.

On sunday, I went home for the weekend, and I talked to my uncle. He's very good with fixing all kinds of things and has alot of different tools, so I asked him if he could go with me and somehow "free" my bike from his sad lonely faith without me. He said sure.

But, in the end, he couldn't come after all, so what to do now? But then, (finally), luckily, faith intervens in the face of my brothers soon-to-be-wife, Zrinka. She spent the day with us, and was going home, it was about 10 in the evening. Normally, I would spend the night and go to work on monday directly from there, but I had an idea. That we could both go, first to my apartment, so I can leave my car there, and then go with her car to town, free the bike and I'd take my bike home, and she'd be on her way. So we both decided "yeah, that's a good plan", borrowed the huge pincers for sawing iron from my uncle, and went to our little adventure. We were both pretty scared, I mean, what if someone reports us to the police? I can't prove that the bike is mine. I bought it over a year ago, and the bill is who knows where. I'm not sure I even have it anymore. That's why I thought it pretty convenient that we go so late on sunday... who goes out on sunday night anyway?

So, we came. And of course, right beside the bike parking, there's a little bank for sitting, and there were two guys sitting there and one girl on the bank a little further. So what to do now? At first I thought we better skip our little robery, and come back on another night, but then Zrinka had a moment of bravery, so we went. We came out of the car carying this giant pincers in a plastic bag. Oh when only i remember now LOL, I SO wish I recorded it all on camera.

Anyway, it didn't work.

We tried about 10 times, and it just didn't work. The pincers did cut the plastic, but not the wires inside. The two guys and a girl looked at us as like we were crazy, the difference was that the guys looked like they were entertaining themselves, and the girl looked scandalized by what we were doing (but didn't call the police after all :)). So we explained that no, we're not stealing the bike, that it was mine, but I lost the keys, so this is the only way to get it back.

I'm not sure if they believed us at all, but the guys then stood up and helped us. And it still didn't work, no matter how many times we tried. But, after so many times of trying to cut the wires, they DID weaken a little, and then Zrinka took the matter in her own hands. She rubbed them, pulled them, shaked them, in all directions, and in the end - SHE CUT THEM WITH HER BARE HANDS! LOL I still can't believe it.

I love Zrinka :)

So the final result: I finally (after weeks of searching) have the dress, and the bike is back home. It was a successful weekend after all.
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Writer's Block: Three dishes I could live on

What three dishes could you live on for the rest of your life?

1. Pizza

I actually did live practically only on pizza (more or less) while I was in college. And... I never got tired of it. So... I can definitely say... I'm a big fan!

2. Fruit

I don't really have a special fruit, I like them all. Today I'm in the mood for melon, gotta go buy.

3. Chicken

No matter how made, I like it in every way. Except if it's in some kind of salad with mayonnaise (I hate mayonnaise). Everything else is just fine :)

Writer's Block: Back in Time

If you could travel in time, which era would you visit and why?

Oooh... so many things I'd love to see...

The future - I'd go to three days from today. I'd write down the winning lottery numbers, come back to today and play the lottery. And so I'd win the millions :D

And I'd like to see how we (the mankind) ended up a few hunderd years from now, if we destroyed the planet (hope not) or stopped the wars, evolved in humanity, if we travel in space etc. And if we do, I'd probabyly sneak into one of the spaceships and go wherever it takes me. I'd love to travel in space, and let's face it - I won't get to do it in this lifetime.

The past - I'd love to see if Atlantis ever really existed, and how Sumerians really lived. And meet Beethoven, and Leonardo, and Michelangelo and many many more...

And Jesus - especially him.

And I'd be very careful not to change the past, because then I wouldn't be able to go back to this lifetime again, maybe I'd even unintentionally do something to prevent myself from even being born. That's why traveling to the future would probably be a lot safer route.
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A quick post...

Just a short quick post (and then I'm back to work), to wish my dear Marina, aka pdgblossom a very happy birthday!

Hope you have lots of fun!

Here's my little present, since I couldn't send it in the message :)

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Just another day...

Good day at work - I got paid all extra hours I worked since the beginning of the year! I can't believe this actually happened, because I've been working here in this firm for 5 years already, and I had hundreds of extra hours, but now is the first time I ever got paid for any of them. At least I got something, I'm not complaining... that's 100€ more than usual, so that's cool.

My brother's getting married! This may. I can't believe that's only three months away. That's so strange, I can't believe his time has finally come... My cousin Ana is also getting married this year, but doesn't have the exact date yet. So now I'm the only one left... LOL! My cousin Tomislav, who got married last year, and his wife, are having a baby... Mirjana already has a baby, little Luka :love: Everyone's growing up. I remember when we were all children, we all lived nearby and played together every day hide and seek, and made mud cakes (never ate them though :P), and played all kinds of stupid games that we made up ourselves... and now we're all on our own so to speak, we grew up going to different schools, make other friends, and it's so rare that we find ourselves together again. So that's one of the reasons I look forward to my brothers wedding, seeing them all again (and also because he's in love and happy ofcourse,that's most important).

So that's in short. I have to go now, because my boss is still here and he's making me nervous, and I can't relax at all while he's here, because we're in the same office and he hears me typing and I... really have to go. So I'm going... home...

On the second thought... I think I'll go finally check out the Chagall exhibition. I did say I'd go out more, didn't I?